#59 ...

    Today, I am feeling quite down and disheartened, so I thought I would take a moment to express my emotions through this blog post. Despite my efforts to stay positive and productive, I cannot help but feel overwhelmed by a sense of sadness that seems to consume me. Perhaps it is a result of recent events or simply a passing mood, but either way, I hope that writing about it will help me process and eventually overcome these feelings.

    I ended a six-year relationship with the person I loved and trusted the most after he lied to me. He had been dishonest about his past and other little things until the truth finally came out. It felt like I didn't know him at all. My heart was shattered. I had an instinct about his lies years ago, but he kept convincing me that my instincts were false. He even made me feel like a terrible person for thinking about them. As it turned out, I was right all along. He was a narcissist who manipulated me! He eventually admitted to everything, but I had to leave for the sake of my self-respect. He was my best friend, and the breakup still hurts.

    I am currently listening to Taylor's latest album, "THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT: THE ANTHOLOGY". It has 31 songs and is perfect for what I am feeling, but I can't seem to find the song that perfectly relates to me.